its as if we all suffer from a sustainable madness
I feel no freedom in m
i don't want to start so formally.. i usially don't get to thiis part so first\
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don't read\\stop youve gone too far\\ sence is not nessesary heere\no one is here but us\ you and you a nd you aand and yourself and you \\ it]s ok \ ti bot \ its ok to be yourself \ here\\ you can be you\ its just you and you \ its just you a yo u ayou ayou and you and you \so \\ it bringsl\ fuck what \fuck that shit no more \\i just\\ \
i watched some movies recently.. thats how all normal conversations start right
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whats normal gagain??
someone remind me what normal is
\ bring out the medicine \\i think im sobering up \\i cant be sober here\\ this place hurts\
\ everything \\ not going in a good direction tat wasn't \\\\\
if the p
bouts of sanity i let escape my cast casle upon hilltop reighns terror upon unsusspecting people un tinny little houses under acid rain and hail fog that rups flesh from bone you no not how you speak\thouset tongue \horns\wings\i see it in you and you na nd you andyourself ]\\ and you \a nd you \\ a you and yourself\\ its ok here\\ nothing can harm you \everything is harmfull so nothing hurts really right
? isnt t hat sicience scienc e sicie \\\ svciij e aw\\ that word seems to be forvbidden at the moment\\ \
\ science
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desperate living i just watched and despertate living is what i wrote . im wildly disatisfied with that sentence. it hurts me to let it stand there looking like that \\p\o
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a gifty gifytdgift? gift? a girf? is a girf? so let the anger pass because nothing can harm you here
taste of my posins taste of my wealth and taste of evil and taste of good and tast e of nothhgning nesssss taste longging taste my sufferingl
mmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmm good.. delicious
As I read through the above statements... one thought prevalent.. am I mad? No i think not watson. Madd is not the diagnosis \infact we are going to need some more tests.. tests.. tes..... tes...testes.te.ste.steste.st.est.est.est.set.est.set.set.set.ets.tse.tse\\
this shit makes me sick sometimes, other times it's pretty great honestly.
Fuck its hard living in two different worlds.. hats off the the
hats off to the person who can live in two seperate worlds.. detach temporarily from their body and then be whole.. your capasity for love hast to be twice fold and IIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIii know how deep the bottom there're demons to behold dark ones filled with power cus hate is of this world.. light ones filled with knowledge theirs wisdom in the word..
putting dark and light together my brilliant idea.. HAAAAA HAAAAAA
what the fuck kinda fix is that to the human condition? If I'm You and You are YOU then what the fuck are we doing here?
goddamnit this makes no since since snegoddamn sense
sometimes i dont want to make sense .\\
you people hurt me when you trap me into logic
the words are unacusstomed to feeling these feelings I get when you read them the way you read them oohh you basterd stop reading it like that your defliving my presseious letters and alphanbet how dar e you abomination to god himself
goddamnit
even knowing the truth is hard
even being the truth is worse
being knowing living understanding loving as i
as you
HURTS. \
FUCKING LOVE YOURSELF YOU DOUMB BITCH
this life in all its meaninglesness.. has the one meaning for you
the meaning you feel when you feel. that feel that no one can sepperate from you
feel with all inteinseitiey feel till you can't feel
feel together and feel
it can
t
be my job to do
wan
an
an
I don't
think so
but maybe ? que?
do you want a chance at the keys / again?./ maybe? no
no
Love i guess is all that truth from you to you right now.. bbut this moment is life
and nothing else is life but this moment